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25.06.2018
My calorie intake has been pretty good! The only thing that I couldn’t really do is the 16/8 fasting but I will try it tomorrow.
SO here is my intake for today:
I have never eaten under 500 calories so this was new for me.
I also walked form school to give so that is 160 cal burned.
I couldn’t work out because I had thing to do. But that is not that bad too because it stoped me from binging.
See you tomorrow!
Stay safe
![[ my legs ]](https://66.media.tumblr.com/d12afa376d639ee302be77ee8f13d6c0/tumblr_p3oe49Gjg61x4mnfqo1_1280.jpg)
[ my legs ]
My size, weight, height and measurement:
- ♥: I usually wear XS or S(European sizing)
- ♥: I'm 45 kg or around this weight (it changes bu 200-300 gr)
- ♥: I'm tall 162 cm
- ♥: Wrist-14.4 cm(thinnest part)- 19.5(thickest)
- ♥: Legs(lower part)- 20.7 cm (thinnest part)- 31.5 cm(thickest)
- ♥: legs(upper part)- 33 cm
- ♥: waist- 55.5-56 cm
OMGGG
Today (12.06.2018) one of my male classmates complimented my waist! He said “It is so small ” in such a kind voice! Also my guy friend said my neck is really small. The past few mounts so many of my classmates have told my that I am so skinny and small. But I have gained weight!
I need to be the hottest person at the grocery store
This perfectly captures my ridiculous inner monologue that revolves around impressing other people in the most oblique ways
listen here you little shits
i’m gonna tell you about fucking peppermint, cause i never hear about it on here.
this shits great as an appetite suppressant. rub a bit of peppermint oil on your stomach? perfect. (please mix so it’s about 50/50 oil/a different oil like coconut oil, some peppermint oil is too strong to apply straight to skin) mix it in a lotion and put it on instead? fucking great. put a few drops in your peppermint tea? FUCKING INCREDIBLE. i personally always put it in my tea and it makes me feel much fuller than if i had normal peppermint tea. you can get peppermint oil pretty much anywhere for pretty cheap. my mom uses essential oils daily so i always have a few bottles on hand.
peppermint tea is also fucking great, (and tastes better than green tea if you don’t like the taste of that). it really helps with bloating, (drink a mug or two before bed), helps with nausea from fasting, aids in weight loss, relieves stress and HELPS WITH CRAMPS. it’s fucking great.
EDIT: please check to make sure the peppermint oil you buy/have can be ingested! some have too many added chemicals and other ingredients!
this has been a psa. peppermint oil & tea. fuck yeah
stay safe! feel free to message me at any time!
I’m sorry, mom
I’m sorry for crying in silence,
I’m sorry for hating this world so much,
I’m sorry for lying to you all the time,
I’m sorry for not being enough,
I’m sorry for failing at everything, for doubting of everything I do,
I’m sorry for arguing with you for stupid things,
I’m sorry for not being able to eat, I’m sorry that I don’t want your food, which you cooked with all your love,
I’m sorry for trying to kill myself without you even knowing it,
I’m sorry for making you to love someone that doesn’t actually exist, for making you to love a daughter that is only a mask of the real Me,
I’m sorry for hurting you,
I’m sorry that I exist,
I’m sorry that I’m so insecure
I’m sorry that I’m stupid,
I’m sorry that I’m fat,
I’m sorry for having so much hate,
I’m sorry that every night I keep wishing that I’ll never wake up again,
but,
most of all…
I’m sorry for not being what you thought I was going to be when you saw me for the first time, when you touched my skin for the first time, when you held my little and fragile body for the first time…
I’m sorry if you ever read this,
I’m sorry,
I’m so so sorry.
i dont even think im that fat, i mostly have my eating disorder bc i hate myself and feel like i need to be punished for being such a pile of garbage lol